Cameron Higland.

Assalamualaikum :)

sibuk mcm mna pun aku nak jugak update gambar dlm blog ni .

gambar2 ni semua hasil daripada percutian ke Cameron Highland with my beloved course-mates

oh and we have a student from MEXICO joined us during the trip. He is in his 4th year (if im not mistaken)  of medicine study ( tu yg baju biru kat atas tu, yang tak tengok camera tu ) . Memang aku takde ah rajin nak berborakk, malaih nak speaking , takat tanya2 sikit adelaa .

 Hujan2 pun tabah jugak kena lawat site . dahla pakai poncho uebc . 

sian muka zira hahahaa

kawan gurau kasar

selain pergi dengan niat nak bercuti and shopping , we also did site visit with REACH( Regional Environmental Awareness Cameron Highland) volunteers . after that , we had a discussion with one of the volunteer , it was totally saddening to see what happened to bertam valley. It is totally not the nature's fault , or neither to blame the rain to fall so hard because if we look carefully , its mankind work. The erosion of soils, the deforestation at the higher region of the mountain for farming purposes just make it worse. Plus now Cameron Highland cannot afford to have more residence in it, since the 'foreigners' has built up their own community up there , it makes the place more crowded. Bukannya tak boleh farming secara besar-besaran , tp mesti kena ada limit kan. 

nak belanja gambar teh tarik kaw-kaw . tp tak tersnap rupanya , teh ais biasa je ada .

sebenarnya dalam banyak2 benda aku buat , ada satu je yg ak rindu . nmpak tak kat bawah tu yang macam drumstick tu .

bukan mcm ye , memang . hahahaa

nampak tak asap2 tu , hah tengah menaip ni pun boleh terliur tau tengok .To conclude , yes it was fun and i did enjoyed the short vacation. and actually esok i should be joining the seniors untuk another program pergi Pahang , yet i am stuck here in college because i cannot re-sit for this sunday test if i missed it and i hate the fact that i cant go . nak buat macam mana dah takde rezeki nak pergi sobs . 

aku rasa aku je kot yang sedih tak dapat pergi. hahaha . takpe2 ada hikmah *positifkandiri*.

Sooooo , till next time when i have the time to write again ,

lots of love, 

tika yap :)

PERTAMA KALI

It will be our first trip together tomorrow . Semoga kita semua pergi dan kembali dengan selamat .

Even banyak masalah yang timbul , may we stay strong as one . InsyaAllah .

tala mau cakap manyak2 , diam2 pegi and have fun saja lohhh tp jangan lebih2 aaa . 

ENVOCH 17

assalamualaikum , *sila jawab ye jangan baca je* .

ENVOCH 17 which stands for environmental and occupational health . and my batch is the 17th batch that taking this course.  so far all is well , the subjects pun boleh handle lagi except for organic chem , its actually not that hard kalau ak ingat lagi semua benda yg aku pernah belajar kat matriks , and if i put extra effort on studying that subject. tapi aku ni queen of procastinating , kata nak study mlm ni x jadi , mlm esok , pun x jadi , sudahnye x sentuh . ya Allah buruknye perangai .

nah , nak belanja sikit gambar2 coursemate.

 there you go , 38 of us , kecuali yg pgg dslr kat belakang tu .

kadang2 aku rasa mcm childish je cerita benda2 mcm ni kat blog , tapi ...... ahh lantak ah . blog ak kan , suka hati laaa . hehe .

so we had this cultural night for the closure for orientation night . betul ke ayat tu ? untuk orientasi envoch ye . so we have to perform in front of the seniors . even group aku hambar , it is still a great teamwork that we had shown to them , yeayy .

*batukdarah*

eid adha is coming and i think its the first i guess without ibu and adik2 . ala , raya haji je pun . kehkehkeh . dah sebulan dua hari aku kat sini , siap kira tau hahahaha , at this stage common la if we start to feel homesick . even my friends that came all the way from JB pun homesick , ape lagi aku yg dok jauh ni kan . bersyukur sgt sebab dulu tggal kat matriks labuan pun jarang balik . aku selalu homesick bila waktu2 stress dengan belajar . so far belum lagi kot , tapiiii rindu la nak jumpa ibnu sobs . eh dah dah karang sedih pulak .

before ending my post this time , nak cerita sikit pasal cara kita berkomunikasi . i may not be good too , but as usual la , this is my blog so i am free to state my opinion out loud . kalau sesiapa yg baca rasa tak setuju , suka hati engkorang la nak buat ape .
its actually more to "how to ask sensitive questions ? " for example , alaaaa nak bagi example pulak susah . hmm . ah takpela , basically soalan yang senstive la , mcm 'kenapa badan awak berbau eh ?' , 'kenapa awak kurus sangat eh , x makan nasi ke ?' , 'kenapa awak gemuk eh ?' .
for those yang do not really care then its okay , tapi kalau la orang tu kecik hati  dengan kita hah kan susah . you should put lotsa common sense in your questions. think wisely before you speak , kadang2 yang mendengar pun rasa engkau sandi . ( sandi = kuaja )
if another killer question come after another . mmg GG la org tu nak menjawab .
AND if IF you are really curious about the person and you think by asking publicly will just end up humiliate the person , why don't you ask the person personally , and if the person seems reluctant ( pandai2 ahh baca air muka org ) to tell you then please say 'its okay , you dont need to tell me if you dont want to' or just go away .
setiap orang ada cerita dia sendiri , sometimes they just want to keep it among themselves and its their rights to do so. not everything can be shared with the whole world . lain la macam aku ni , mulut bising kalau boleh semua aku nak cerita . and yes im that kind of person yang tak berapa kisah kalau org bertanya ttg sejarah hidup aku stakat 19 tahun ni , ceh sejarah hidup , mcm dh hidup lama je kan

thats it .

lots of love,
tikayap

bangunan tinggi 7 tingkat  (FPSK) . credits to lala for this picture

penat

assalamualaikum , im actually in the middle of finding extra notes on organic chemistry , and the time now is 12.28 a.m .i want to take a break for a while . nak cerita cerita sikit kat sini . sebenarnya nak update psal cerita2 masa orientation course and what happened around lately . tapi rsanya on next post kot .

im having a little hard time these days , there were so many activities and meeting . bak kata diorang , awal2 je macam ni . still adapting kot. smpai kadang2 dah terasa priorities kita is buat aktiviti , get merits and other stuffs than studying. bila suddenly lecturer said "okay , lusa ada kuiz" . baru mcm tersentak 'eh , ak belum belajar la' . tp activities still go on mcm biasa.

im taking LAX which i dont know what it stands for , but the subject has no credit hours but uses points instead . each group has 6 members and we are all from different college , almost all . and serious talk la kan , my college is quite far from the main campus , yeah i know klu ada effort mesti boleh jalan punya. ok , transportation is the first world problem , and all of us have different schedule, ada yg untill 7pm , with no breaks sometimes and bla bla . and actually quite susah nak cari satu masa yg semua free at the same time

saying from the University's perspective , they may do this in thinking that the students should mix around between different colleges , jgn nak dok terperap dengan students dari kolej same je . ala , but still got kokum ma , we can still meet each other from different college what . i think they should just put the group members  between same college .

and coming next , we have this camp which called Ultra Elite Boost Camp , and yes it is compulsory to all the first year students , and whoever x pernah join. im trying to take it positively la , masih mencuba actually . ala , dengar je camp kan ? confirm ah kena teriak sana sini . terima je la wahai cik atika. tp serius mmg ni akan jadi camp plg teruk kot ak pnah pegi , nak bandingkan BTN dulu mgkn lg ok kot .


in few more days dh nak cuti raya haji . makin nak dekat cuti , makin sibuk . dengan quiz la , ganti kelas la , tired la tired . but still trying the best . hmm dah dah la , nak sambung mmbaca . *padahal dah mengantuk*

till next time ,
lots of love.
tikayap.

otak berkarat

assalamualaikum , its raining here in upm . alhamdulillah , cuaca yg sesuai untuk sambung tidur hahahaha . i am not taking the co-curriculum subject for this semester sbb kelab yang tinggal semua tak best . my buddy ( mcm mentor gituww ) said that i will still be able to catch up my studies, college activities wlupun ambik koko masa second year.  and i have two buddies , kak adriana and ridhwan habib :) sepatutnya pagi ni ada aktiviti untuk kelab penyayang , hmphhh penyayang gitu hahaha . dari kolej nak pegi bukit ekspo agak jauh ah . dah la kena jalan kaki , oh emm geee tiba2 hujan lebat , berhenti tepi jalan mental breakdown tak tau nak teruskan ke tak .

nasib baik ada payung

i managed to snap some pictures to share this time . jom cuci mata :)

took this one from fb . isnt it beautiful *shedtears* hahaha melebih

should have taken few shots from the entrance , tp blm berkesempatan . ceh ayat skema . nantilaaaa ak share lg . hehe

nak cerita la jugak psl one of the subjects yg aku ambik sem ni . hah baru nak masuk tajuk entry kali ni , atas tu mukadimah hahaha . THE ORGANIC CHEMISTRY . dulu masa matriks mmg minat gila subjek ni , smpai masa UPU pun ada mohon major in chemistry. tapi masalah yg timbul sekarang ak tak boleh nak recall apa yang ak belajar dulu , dah puas fikir smpai sakit kepala , smpai kena gi download balik nota matriks to revise the basics. hah , pengajaran dia kat sini , belajar janganlah kerana exam je , especially adik2 , ikhlaskan la diri belajar and niatkan ilmu tu memang nak guna smpai bila2 , sekarang kira terkapai gak ah . 

syukur jugakla lecturer ak , Dr Kamyar Shameli , sanggup repeat certain konsep yang ktrg x fhm . kamsaheyo . 

dah dah cukup pasal U , im about to share , emm nak promote la jugak tempat ni , especially for those yg study dekat2 sini . klu hujung minggu tu dah tak tau nak buat apa , takkan la asyik2 mid , mines je kan . pergila seksyen 7 shah alam . ada laman seni . nothing much to say about this place , let pictures do the talking .

tak sampai sebulan aku tinggal kat sini , dah jalan2 bagai . hahaha minta maaf bu , ka jalan je , tak shopping pun. tengok2 tempat , nti ka bawa adik2 jalan pulak best tau kat situ hahahahaha . 

till next time guys .

lots of love ,
tikayap.

freshie

assalamualaikum , haaaa akhirnya aku dah dpt masuk universiti alhamdulillah . officially a student of Universiti Putra Malaysia . syukur syukur syukur . ni lah cita-cita masa bebudak dulu , 'nak masuk U' sekarang dah sampai pun tahap ni :) aku student course environmental and occupational health , memang kalau first time dengar agak rare course ni , orang sekeliling pun duk tanya kenapa tak ambik medic ke , engineering ke , ada peluang kerja ke. hemmmm ada laaa sebabnya kenapa aku pilih course ni sbagai first choice. lagipun mmg dh terima seadanya dan reda dah aku kat sini , dapat tempat belajar mcm ni pun dah cukup bahagia dah.

nak cerita la sikit psal kolej yang aku tinggal ni , nama kolej ni kolej 17 , under fakulti perubatan dan sains kesihatan . haa tu je la sikit je kan . nasib baik la fakulti kat sebelah kolej je so tak yah nak rebut2 naik bas nak ke kuliah sbb fakulti ktrg bukan dlm main campus . nak tunjuk gambar sikit tp x ter-snap pula. lain kali la .

kuliah dah start dari semalam , kawan2 pun dah banyak sebab majority dh berkenalan masa orientasi , so bila masuk first class tak la awkward sbb dh knal seminggu. haaa orientasi ktrg , Minggu Perkasa Putra . dengar je orientasi , siapa suka kan ? mesti jadual packed , tkejar sana sini , mandi mcm x mandi , kena denda sana sini . tapi tak sangka orientasi MPP ni la first time tak yah kena denda2 , fasi semua baik gilossss , bila salah kena tegur , nasihat . memang ak respect ahh drg ni. drg mcm matang giler , bila compare dgn diri sndiri pehh jauh beza . and ak jadikan tu harapan utk diri sendiri , banyak yg aku kena belajar spanjang dekat sini , bukan hanya setakat akademik tp juga utk persiapkan untuk luar sna

homesick belum ada lagi , tapi rindu sikit2 tu adelaa , nak balik kemain jauh nun haa seberang laut . nasib baik sedara ramai kat sni xdela rasa sunyi sangat sobs

lepas ni nak jugak rajin2 update blog , tgokla mcm mna .

kawan sebangsa hekhek

lots of love ,
tika yap

two years and counting

assalamualaikum , it has been 2 years since baba passed away . and it feels like he's gone longer than 2 years sobs . all those memories i shared with him are still clear and so fresh but thats it no more memories will be created.

*2yearsbefore*
it was tuesday morning, im so excited for school that day i dont know why , i even woke up earlier to get ready for school since it was the day i dont have to put on uniform but shirt and pants instead. i was aware that i didnt give my mom yet en jaini's phone number . she need it to call him for approving the permission to let me go back . we were planning to go to KL on that friday to meet my baba  that will come back from india . but we were not expecting that he will came back unbreathable .

while getting ready for school , someone announced my name that i have a visitor , i somehow knew that it was ibu and i was like 'oh , she's here to get en. jaini's number' i grabbed a pen and wrote down his number on paper and flew down as fast as i could bcs i knew she was busy sending my brothers around to school but still could find time to come. and it turn out it was not the purpose why she came.

she hold me tightly and tell me to be strong with what she's going say, seconds before she could said something , actually i already had that instinct that she were going to say that. baba has been preparing us for the day he's gone . he kept telling us to take care of ibu while he's not there. over and over again. he really aware with what he's been facing with his health and we knew that too or maybe its only me angah bcs the rest of my siblings are still small enough to understand what is happening.

i went home with kak lang and ibu. me and angah tried to help ibu as much as we could , i knew she was
facing the hardest time with 6 of us and how to pursue life without baba. we managed to get flight tickets and arrived in kl that evening. this is the most hardest part when relatives and friends come and hug me told me to be patient and have faith blablabla because those words make it harder. it makes more tears come out and they dont even felt what i felt on that time and how they even said that . to be honest i take only words from people who really had lost their loves one . losing a dad its like losing parts of your body you became paralyzed and unsupported . and then i realized that its not the end bcs we still have ibu with us who still will be strong for 6 of us.

the next day, all of us went to KLIA cargo place to fetch baba's body, his body was sent all the way from india and thankfully his friends has taken care of his body in our religion's way. after some of my parents' friends gave their last honour we head back to our village , parit perak.

unfortunately, we didnt manage to get to kiss him and so on as he was applied with some sort of chemical to prevent smell came out during his flight in cargo . he was placed right next to my late greatgrandmother and greatgrandfather . i have a thought that time that this pain will heal by time but its not easy, i wonder how it was for the younger ones. i have lived until 17 years with him . but not the younger ones, they may even not to know baba as whole . i really feel sad for them.

as time goes by, i hope i can treat them just as how baba treated us, how he fed us , how he taught us about life , religion , importance of chasing His jannah. Changing myself to a better person would do.

from Allah we came , and to Him we return.

lots of love ,
tikayap