May

Assalamualaikum, sebulan dah tak buka benda ni hehehe so lets do a quick updates on what i did in May. Agak susah nak cari masa update this space of mine during May, so memandangkan it is friday night yang tak memberatkan kepala, jiwa dan raga  hahahaa and i decided to update la kejap.

*scrollcameraroll* 

oh. my makcik get married masa awal May and of course the best part during weds is you get to take nice pictures with the pelaminss yang cecantikss . Congratulations cikfarah :)

The only way untuk ak ingat balik ape yg tjadi the whole month is by scrolling my gallery yang penuh tu . klu x mmg jenuh nak ingat balik. so, we managed to celebrate alhan's birthday too wehuuuuuu, its supposed to be a surprise event, tapi part of the rahsia tbocor kat tgh jalan hahaha but yet it is still a surprise to her.

sbelum ak share the highlight of this month which is on the 24th, some announcement was made around the 18th i guess, it was definitely the second most shocking announcement i have ever heard. sigh, things happened for a reason huh ? mentally broke down for a few days and then came my birthday. did not expect anything, tapi tetibe housemate buat surprise hahahahhaa. pandai korang berlakon eh ? ada meeting la, apela rupa-rupanya . im so thankful guys :')

 ni je yang ak sempat snap before semua masuk perut hahaha. BIG thanks to FIZA, HANNAH, JOANNE, LALA, ZULAIKHA and SHAHIRA :)

THE HIGHLIGHT

here comes the main event of then month, ENVOCH ( environmental and occupational health ) Family Day. at first, i was unable to attend the morning session ( sukaneka ) due to kokuriulum. tapi last minute drg tukar plan, so cepat-cepat siap naik gi padang ( even dah lambat )

for the night session, we had BBQ and movies night sambil2 menjamu selera hehehe. the food was great ( hmm semua makanan mmg sedap kalau bagi kat ak ) hahaha 

My round of applause to the Family Day's committee yang dh byk keluar tenaga untuk plan and make sure things went well on the day. Tahniah akak pengarah kita Fara Nadh. Well, bukan semua boleh buat 100% perfect, but it was great to me and i bet to all the envoch-ers too :) tahniah semuaaaaa. it was great to see us juniors and the seniors bonding well. totally grateful for this.

pada hari yang sama jugak projek mega kokurikulum ak pn selesai, yes ak lari jap pegi hadir final class dekat pertengahan gap family day hahah . benda ni la paling serabut untuk sem ini and its finally done. *applauseagain*

Thats all for this month's update. Sebenarnya banyak lagi yang aku buat, tapi kang berjela-jela pulak post aku ni. Next month dah nak final , approximately 2 minggu lagi , debar dia dh terasa dah, sedar diri pun dah, nota pun selak dah, selak je . hahahahahhaa . so yeah, lets struggle for better results utk sem dua ni :) bak kata lala " takde benda yang tak sempat " meh la study ye . 

till next time.

lots of love,

tikayap.

mereka yang kita sayang ...

hello people, assalamualaikum :)

hmm how should i start with my story this time ? ni serius ngadap tau laptop 2 minit tak tau cm mne nk start ..........

k , so on last week . on sunday , ktrg pegi pusat jagaan dekat area kajang. err aku x sure proper ke kalau aku share nama sbenar tempat . errr... takpelaa . pandai2 la korang cari kalau nak tau k

at first ak cam x yakin nak pegi , sbb sensitif aku ni kdang2 over. ak jamin ak akan meleleh kalau dengar kisah-kisah yg menyayat hati. confirm beb confirm. but it turn out to be not as i expected it to be. before ni , pd pandangan ak , pusat jagaan ni mesti rata-rata orang tua yang anak-anak tak nak jaga or yang takde tempat tinggal . tapii , sebenarnya tak wehh . it turned out to be ada golongan yang tertentu pun ada kat sana. maybe sebab nama diaa 'pusat jagaan' bukan rumah orang tua 

sebelum sampai sana , aku mmg dh siap2 doa dh supaya jgn nangis . kalau sedih tahan , simpan masa balik nanti. 

I did a lot of new things haritu. dulu baba pernah kata 'nti bila ibu baba tua, korang la kena jaga, bila kena pakai diapers ke ape ke , tak boleh kata geli' and of course la masa tu reaksi ak 'alaaaa , gelinya' and *paap* the first thing i did the moment i step into the women's space is put on one of the penghuni's diaper. tu memang something yang aku x expect aku akan buat . kiranya , haritu kitrg dtg bantu apa yg ptt and hiburkan drg.

expectation ak , keadaan akn jd mcm ala-ala cerita bersamamu, drg kongsi cerita sedih la ape la . tapiii , they are the one who make us smile and laugh. ak sempat sembang dgn sorang opah ni , walaupun dia anggap diri dia makcik tapi rasanya dia dah baya nenek aku kot. umur opah tu 75 , umur nenek aku emmm emmm emmm . hahahaha sorry nek ka tak ingat . opah zainun ni siap speaking uolls , she is totally good in english so aku pn gagahkan diri gak ahh speaking , hentam je asal flow ade hahaha. dia ade sorang anak and anak dia dh meninggal , i didnt ask how she end up dekat pusat tu , sebab mmg ak rasa soalan sedih2 ni tak perlu ditanya , lain la kalau dia nk buka cerita kan ? dia ckap ' kenapa kena sedih2 , if you keep crying, one day you will be running out of tears. hidup ni wlupun mcm ni, life must go on' . she is so positive about her situation. well , the young ones should really learn from her.

belanje gambar opah

besides that opah , ada sorang lagi baya-baya ibu ak. serius ak cakap aku sedih bila dgr cerita dia, walaupun dia x sempat nk cerita semua. bcs i think she deserves more , dahla dia baya-baya ibu ak .

ni hasil jahitan kak ati ,percaya atau x , she use only one hand to make this , yes , dia golongan kurang kemampuan ,

maybe bkn smua, tapi ada segelintir org muda sekarang yang ketepikan parents. bila dah kahwin, mesti ada golongan-golangan kecik ni akan put their parents sebagai perkara kedua. okay, aku tak kahwin lagi mungkin ak takkan faham perasaan tu , but still mana perginya janji-janji masa kita kecik dulu nak jaga ibu ayah la , apela . mmg tipu ah kalau ko ckap ko tak pernah ckap mcm ni kat parents kau masa kecik dulu , kan ? k mungkin budak2 lagi, waktu tu x sedar bila dah besar , busy la , x sempat nak balik la kan ? Mmg waktutu beratus alasan kau blh bagi en ?

k k jap aku mcm nak marah orang je aku tulis cmtu kan ? hahaha anggapjela ni future use. ape yg aku tulis ni semua drpd ape yg aku perhati kat sekeliling aku.

orang tua ni bila drg makin berusia, dorang makin sensitif . kita ni yang muda, jgnla keras kepala jugak nk melawan . masa kecik dulu bukan main tak boleh naikkan suara dgn parents , pastu siap cakap lagi cikgu pesann tak boleh lawan ckp ibu ayah , cikgu pesaaaaaan tak boleh derhaka. tapi bila dh besar , mana semua tu ? klu ada salah mereka, cakapla pelan2, slow talk la beb. kan kan kan ? jgnla smpai nk bergaduh , dah besar dh kann ?

haaaa arwah penah cakap lagi 'kalau anak-anak ni bila besar buat taik, baik awal-awal baba tak pyah jaga' . ak akn ingat ayat tu sampai aku mati . tapi betul la kan ? susah payah drg besarkan , drg ingat secara details kot kisah hidup kau drpd kecik , tp bila kita besar. *tuuup* hilang mcm tu sifat perikemanusiaan . selagi ada masa , hargailah please. jangan nanti dh tak ada baru nak menyesal sbb tak sempat nak buat baik dgn drg. please appreciate the moments kau still boleh salam dia, peluk dia and the fact that they are home when you go back.

bila dh berumahtangga nti , jangan la lupakan terus kebajikan drg , bdasarkan pemerhatian aku, bila anak-anak ni dh kahwin, drg akan try hard utk x susahkan anak anak drg . mostly, they will say 'takpe , mak abah tak kisah' dengan nada sedih , hehe takdela sedih mane , cuma nada tu cm rare ahhh , eihh mesti kau akan perasan punya . when that moment comes , you better do something . lagi-lagi kaum ibu, kalau kecik hati susah plak kang .

remember , jaga hati ibu. she's one of the reason why you are here now, alive and reading my post now. biarpun dia ada salah sekalipun , SHE IS STILL YOUR MOTHER . pray la supaya Allah lembutkan hati dia :) . kalau dia baik sangat pulak , jgnla ambik kesempatan k .

haaaa dah kelaut daripada tajuk . so overall , i had fun kat sane . ktrg sempat hiburkan drg dgn few songs . and suddenly makcik sorang ni bwak keluar buku lirik yg dia beli a long time ago . antik weyhhhh

i wrote too much . i should have wrote more about the pusat . hmm xpela . hahaha .  soo bye kesayangans semua .

lots of love,

tika yap.

hang gai

i am not supposed to go out again , masa sem 1 dah kata nak kurangkan . hmm nak kurangkan la ni . tapi , haritu ter-keluar . hahahaha

'hang gai' stands for pegi jalan-jalan btw .

cik zuereen drive tau, dari damansara ke shah alam . aku ikutttt je k . dengan bantuan waze yang tak berapa siuman , alhamdulillah selamat pegi and slamat smpai kat seventeen smula hikhik.

 duduk tu mmg x blh sopan lagi ke cik tika ?

 berpuluh burst pictures dlm phone smata nak sekeping ni

 

we went to empire damansara semata-mata azuereen nak background wall yang cantik tu and then to setia city mall for the grass . berbaloi sangat kan ? *flipstudung*


lots of love,

tikayap

Learning from experience

Do you ever feel like you really reeeeaaaaally gain a lot of things from any activities you did ? Maybe most of the time you will just admit that " yes , daripada program ni saya dapat bla bla bla , mengajar saya erti bla bla " but did it actually strikes right through you heart and mind and kau rasa macam 'aku dh improve ahhhhhhhh' *pufff**mindblown* hahahaha k tak kelakar . Back to the point just now , and then kau dah berani buat apa yang kau tak pernah buat sebelum ni . dulu pendam je "ahhhh, aku tak berani la nak suarakan, takpela nanti mesti ada orang akan cakap"

and suddenly out of nowhere *boom* i can talk in front of group of people . Mulut aku kepoh macam mane pun , bila kena suruh cakap something yang actually berisi kat depan orang ramai , memang tak laa, nak bangun pun berat.

i joined a program that took almost my 3 weeks time but i am totally grateful for the outcome yang aku dapat . sumpah berpuas hati dengan dapatan program. eventhough i joined the program sbb terpaksa. rasa terperangkap pun ada . heh ni pendapat aku k . bcs i thought jadi fasi sahaje. siapa tahu rupanya ada cheese di sebalik roti yang lepas aku daftar baru aku tahu. and things cannot be undo like the typo words you type in Words (what ?)

questions like "awak memang nak join ke ?", "klu tak nak kenapa saya tgk awak bagi komitmen btl2?" . first, amanah . second , sian laaaaa kawan2 yang lain kalau kita tak buat kerja . in my point of view, walaupun kita diberi tugasan yang kita tak nak and memang sumpah tak nak buat but it still given to you , kenala buat betul-betul kan ? if kau tak gerak , kau ingat program ada kaki ke boleh bergerak sendiri ke ? secondly, tak kira dalam situasi apa pun , we must support members yang bertungkus lumus buat kerja, kalau drg dah gerak A smpi Z tiba2 kau yang buat part C tak siap , mane nak lengkap lagu ABC . kan ? im nt trying to be all positive , tapi faham2 ah aku kena letak isi sedap2 dlm blog hahahaha

and thanks to this programme too i get a new family. daripada yang tak pernah bertegur sekarang dah boleh gelak sakan sama2. hik hik hik. that is the best part of all :) it totally makes my days here in seventeen more exciting .

to conclude, nak cakap experience totally makes us a better person. bila ada kesilapan dan sepanjang pengalaman tu, insyaAllah kita tak akan repeat benda tu in the future. because we learn from mistakes kannn ? kalau ada yang kurang in past , kita tambah baik in the future . so the more experience you have , insyaAllah the better you are.

 when people said your life is not all about exam pointer is somehow betul, memang betul pun. sebab ada je yang tak setuju pasal ni , dia akan cakap  'yelaaa, memang la dia nak kita ada soft skill tapi dia pandang pointer dulu' . i am totally disagree. i have a friend yang abang dia dpt 3.00 for his CGPA . tapi dia blh dapat kerja dgn Petronas and its a off shore work , he beat other applicants yang pointer 3.5 above just because of his soft skills. Impress huh ?

sekarang ni everything is about competition. kau tak reti cakap, memang out ah from game . mungkin tak semua macam tu tapi still,  part of apa yang aku sampaikan betul kan ? stuju tak ? tapi jangan pulak fokus nak pupuk soft skills je . seimbangkan everything . study always comes first . :)

pointer gempak + kau gempak = BOOM *fireworks*

atas dah 'to conclude', tapi tak berhenti menaip lagi . hahaha . so, itu je la . hm . yes . thats all .

lots of love,
tikayap

p/s: anwar hadi is back on track. lama weyh dia dah tak blogging . ke aku je yang baru perasan ?

depan surau pukul 1 pagi

through thick and thin in Seventeen ( mata dh start bengkak sobs )

 thanks to the kids who joined , the seniors that helped and the friends who stay :)

20 ?

Assalamualaikum and happy new year everyone J im unofficially 20 now , kepala 2 wei kepala 2 . and 1995 was 20 years ago . phewww lelah nak sampai sini tau

Pelbagai onak duri telah ku tempuh ( PUI !! ) padahal banyak benda lagi yang aku belum teroka and banyak gila benda lagi yang aku blm tahu . Ilmu yang aku ada sekarang ni umpama sebutir beras dalam sekampit 10 kg tu . hahhhhh , seciput je tu tika oi .

and I have 1 more paper to sit , jumaat depan . and ada seminggu k gap .sekarang ni tgh musim orang sakit, kesian tgk those friends yang sakit2, demam la , denggi la . dia kalau kena waktu study week ke takpe gak , ni dah nak exam kena tu yang susah . kena skip exam pastu nti mesti byk procedure masa nak re-sit la apela. Take care please guys and drink lots of lots of water pleaseeeeee.

We also have new addition in Hj Shaari’s clan yesterday ( 31.12.2014 ) . Sepasang kembar yang ak tak tahu lg nama drg. Tahniah Maklong Syima J they are the third pair of twins in the clan. Lepas adik2 ak , cucu nek lang and them ( cucu neklong ) . We were so excited when we heard the news , ye la sape tak excited kan , kembar ? and then ibu2 yang ada anak kembar akn reunion masa raya sembang psl jga anak kembar and all they can talk about twins . hmm mungkin next time aku akan share gmbar2 kmbar dlm family , hmm one fine day insyaAllah

Agaknya memang gene kembar dalam family aku kuat kot . Sbb nenek moyang aku mmg kembar , actually even themselves are not sure if they are twins or not , but since they have identical faces so we assume they are. Suara pun sebijik , gaya cakap pun sama . Setiap kali jumpa nyang sorang lg tu , mesti teringat nyang aku sobs.

till next time . 

lots of love,

tikayap :)

exam weeks and sick

assalamualaikum , yes dah nak dekat giler dh dengan exam , oh mai i dont even feel nervous man , why tika why ? i tweeted this before about how i wish to have the same exact feeling when i sat for my pspm back then . ni mcm eh nak exam ke tak ni ? cuak tu cuak tapi mcm emmm entahlaa

its the 6th day im not feeling well , and harini aku sahkan aku kena denggi hahahahahaha . k tak kelakar pun . since my roomate yang kena dulu , so i some sort of aware of what should i do . to prevent myself to go for drip , i need to make sure my platelets numbers are not decreasing , how ? by eating lots of fruits and veges . andd also by controlling my fever . sekarang ni mmg demam je ak boleh kawal. ni rashes pun dh muncul , jari2 dah start swollen . insyaAllah tak lama lagi baikla tu.

they say if kena denggi for 2nd time , it can bring death . zzzuuuppppp . and i have another sem to go with my current room . mgkn sbb bilik tepi longkang pastu groundfloor then nyamuk pulak mmg telebih sayang kat aku. mmg x salah la aku berdendam dgn nyamuk sejak dari dulu , mmg tak suka and nak bunuh je setiap kali dia buzzzing depan aku.

and its almost new year , yeayy dah 20 . leaving the 1 behind . dah makin besar dah aku rupanya , 20 tahun dah hidup , hrap2 ada 20 lagila kan ? insyaAllah .

goodbye 2014. it has been a great year . aku rasa tahun 2014 adalah tahun yang aku x sia2kan pun . 2014 aku masih dekat matriks , sat for the finals then jadi surirumah tak bergaji , daftar masuk U and now im preparing for the first sem's final . wow . Great things too happened in this year :) thank You :)

k k k dh kena stop , tangan gue udah gatel2

till next time .

lots of love,
tikayap :)

bunga-bunga yang mewangi di taman hati

walau jauh mana sekalipun aku merantau , korang jugak aku cari bila susah . thanks for being there and not to forget yang lain kat sabah tu  , terima kasih juga kepada sang pencipta kita Ya Allah , terima kasih dan terima kasih kerana menghadirkan mereka dalam hidup ku selepas keluargaku :) #sovereign