unsure of myself

sometimes aku rasa aku ada inner conflict yang pelik. CONTOH: bila aku rasa terlalu confident dengan diri sendiri utk buat something, it will end up with outcome yang tak seperti aku harapkan, yela sbb bila aku totally confident in something aku akan buat sungguh2, BUT then, bila aku main hentam kromo and tak letak 100% effort, it turns out to be something good. ko nak ape sebenarnye ha atika yap ?

so topik sekarang ni is aku jadi was-was untuk terlalu yakin sobs.

i tend to lead bila aku rasa apa yang aku fikir betul, so bila orang sekeliling aku tak betulkan/tegur apa yang aku salah, so i will lead people to the wrong way. scary beb. because i already did something wrong recently :(

i am sooooo scared that these kind of feeling akan buat self-esteem aku makin rendah . how how how?

i did a personality test which categorised us in groups of colors few months ago , and i am in the 'orange' group. it turns out to match my personality real well. "selalu buat tindakan dahulu, dan baru fikir akibatnya" yes, thats me. x pernah nak fikir panjang. hmm tgk la sekarang apa jadi. this mixed feeling is soooo bad sighh.

disebabkan tak pasti dengan diri sendiri. i become unsure of the future me. (future=hala tuju nak buat fyp apa, nak masuk bidang apa) , i know these kind of thing takes time tapiii tak boleh pandang remeh kot.

bahaya ni bila self-esteem makin down hahahahah

k random rants tamat kat sini

praying real hard supaya this sem habis cepat :(

lots of love,
utk diri sendiri daripada diri sendiri